Mikki. 18y/o. 02/04. Geek. ARTificial.
{ Don't worry about the end of the world today,
it's already tomorrow in Australia. }

Not sure where to start, where a life of things were left unsaid, where words and letters could have be written. A life of changes, of meanings, of smiles and cries. And yet I decided to really start this, really commit to a blog. For a first, I may be serious about this, wishing to express in words what I only concerved in fragile thin glasse pots.

As a devil with angel wings, I'm this but not quite that. I'm more complicated than easy, more social than shy, more geeky than stupid, more sweet than sour. I art my life. I'm a freek, neat freak yet not for my room. I think in a clutter, I live with clutter yet I hate it. I'm here yet I can't say I'm not there. I look behind even if for the ugly pictures, I'm living with my hurtful past moments on my shoulders. I don't talk about what is going wrong with me. I'm a compulsive person, I'm an odd ball. My heart tumping to the rythms of my thougts constantly marching by.

I live in fear, stressing till I can't think anymore. I'm afraid, terrified, of not beeing good enough. I believe I'm not good enough. And if plans for my future are stil on hold, still in process, I try to know what I'll do before I need too. I'm troubled, complexe, tainted in black and pink, sorry for nothing. I control every part of my life I can.

I'm a dreamer with no purpuse. I see things with tinted glasses. I sleep no hours. I'm the odd one within my friends. I love those who are to far. I live to control. One life is hardly enough. I wan't more, I need more. I want to be this yet that or this.

❝芸術愛好家❞

DEC Sciences, Lettres et Arts. No to sure where I'm going with this. Not sure if I'm going in the good direction either. I just know, just really know, it can't be a mistake. It may not be a good direction, but it just can't be wrong. It's just too me to let it go. And if i does become a mistake, it will be the best one I ever made.

Wishing upon a falling fairy star.

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